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Is love really worth all the pain?

Was watching Kareena and Saif at the Filmfare awards. I was actually feeling so irritated, the whole drama and thinking about Shahid was increasing my irritation. He wouldn’t even have bothered watching it on TV (he wasn’t there on the venue, as expected)!!! Movie stars’ love lives have never interested me much but then why was I bothered when watching Kareena coochie cooing with Saif on the stage? May be because I’m also going through the after-effects of a break-up.

Well, that explains my irritation. And my question… Is love worth all the pain?

You waste time falling in love. Going through the whole process, starting from meeting the right person, getting close, falling head-over-heels in love, realizing you want to spend your whole life with him/her, courting, talking to your parents, fighting them, realizing it’s not heading the right direction and then breaking up (can be in any order and it might differ from person to person). And after that you spend time feeling sad, crying, mourning, getting depressed (the time period here can differ too). And then you feel was it really worth it.

I know being in love is the best feeling one can ever get and falling out of it the worst. I’m still not sure if I’ve reached that stage of “love is crap”, “I don’t believe in love” or “don’t fall in love”. There is some part of me which says love’s there at least for people who are in it and who believe in it. For me it doesn’t exist any more because no more repeats for me.

Always thought mine was the matured sort of love. Yes, I was completely “in love”. Always happy, very few fights, lot of understanding, possessiveness only when required, talking about everything, being best friends, standing up to my parents (and never let the guy know what all my parents thought of him). All fairytale stuff. And then I woke up (or rather both of us woke up).

Don’t want to think what went wrong. But yes he has got out of it. Then why can’t I? More than love I guess it is the hurt feeling and the feeling that he has moved on. I don’t know how many go through the same ordeal (and I’m not even sure why I am posting this blog). But I have to get out of it and like many others I am trying my best and waiting for the “right person” again.